I walk a lonely road

I'm so lost. I don't feel connected to anyone.  Not my friends, not my parents, no one.  I miss how things were a few years ago- simple.  I don't know myself anymore because I do things based on how I think others see me rather than how I see myself. Back in middle school I knew who I was, who my friends were, and what I liked. Now, one minute I'm reading fucking Henry David Thoreau and feeling like a hippie and the next minute I'm just another person.  I'm on a journey to find myself but the only problem is that I can't find the starting line. 

The worst part is that no one notices.