I walk a lonely road

I'm so lost. I don't feel connected to anyone.  Not my friends, not my parents, no one.  I miss how things were a few years ago- simple.  I don't know myself anymore because I do things based on how I think others see me rather than how I see myself. Back in middle school I knew who I was, who my friends were, and what I liked. Now, one minute I'm reading fucking Henry David Thoreau and feeling like a hippie and the next minute I'm just another person.  I'm on a journey to find myself but the only problem is that I can't find the starting line. 

The worst part is that no one notices.

I lost already (#2)

I'm a skeptic. 

#1

I'm Samm, not Samantha.

I'm holding onto the wind

For now on I'm going to try and post one thing about me each day.

Angie <3 Chris

Not so much a revelation.  I was watching the season 1 finale of "Skins" on Youtube tonight when I thought to myself, "Hey. I should really do my AP US History homework." And you know what, when I finished the episode, I did do it.  I know it may not seem like much, but I wanted to start season 2 really badly and for me to have the will power to tell myself "no" is a big deal. I'm proud of myself even if I can't convince myself to do my AP Lit homework.  Oh well. Start off with small steps, right?

I'm still sickish.

Fml.

I went to the library after school today to actually get some work done and I typed up a 7 page paper... it got deleted. So then I went home and I typed it again after having a mini breakdown in the car.  Now instead of finishing my other homework I'm cleaning out my bedside table drawers. 

I've been sick since saturday which means I'm currently missing my 3rd day of school.

Not so good because of my AP classes. Crap.