Dear love,

I really don't know what to do. I love you so much, but I can feel you growing distant. I know you love me and you tell me that you'll do anything to make it work, but what are you doing? I understand that it is complicated. Everything is always complicated. I know my judging you doesn't help, either, and for that I'm truly sorry. I just don't understand everything you do. I don't know how to keep you interested. I don't know what happened to make you so distant. You don't talk to me anymore. You tell me it's because you "don't know what to say," but nothing has changed. I'm still me. I still want to hear every detail of your day and I'm still interested in anything you have to say.

I'm sorry that I've been frustrated with you lately. I just can't stand when it seems like you're not trying. I've never wanted anything as much as I want us to work, and for the first time in my life I'm actually trying. I hate that I don't feel like you're trying. I know you are, but I can't see it. I just want you to put forth effort. Is that wrong of me to say? I just want you to open up and tell me what you're thinking. When I ask you what's wrong I don't want you to say "nothing." We both know that's not true. It makes me feel so fucking bad that you're not comfortable around me. It makes me feel like shit. I hate that you're afraid to embarrass yourself in front of me. I'm here for you to whine to, and vent to, and cry to. I don't want you to cry alone. I want you to be able to call me up, and I want to be there to listen for you.

Please. Just talk to me.

I love you.